18. Letters from Rehab

I’d like to share an emotional letter that my mother wrote me while I was in one of the many rehabs that I attended.  I think it’s extremely important to share these letters with you because it shows a different perspective on addiction.  I always asked my family not to visit me while I was in rehab because I was embarrassed to be there.  The thing is, I had NOTHING to be embarrassed about!  After all, I was in rehab because I was trying to change my life for the better.  My family and friends often wrote me.  I saved almost every single card/note that I received (there are a lot) while I was bouncing from rehab to rehab. I’m so glad I did because I can now use them to help spread awareness on addiction.

“Dear Kyle,

 I miss you, but I’m so happy that you are working on getting your life back.  Sounds Like you are learning a lot there.  Your quality of life will be so much better when you’re living it free of alcohol and illegal drugs.  I truly think that you can do it and have a good life with way less stress – it doesn’t work when the only thing you care about is where your next fix is coming from.  Drugs and alcohol have determined the course of your life thus far.  They have caused you legal, financial, moral, employment problems and mental health issues.

I am so sorry that I didn’t realize that you were in so much pain and dealing with anxiety, stress, anger, etc.  I guess maybe I noticed some things but attributed it to tough teen years (puberty, emotions, growing pains, etc.).  Perhaps your problems and addictions wouldn’t have had the chance to progress as they did.  We’ll never know, but I am truly sorry for that. 

I’m proud of you taking action to get better.  I know it was one of the hardest things you will ever do, but also think it’s one of the most valuable things you could do for yourself.

I miss you terribly, but know you are working hard at finding a healthy way to live.  Your actions from now on will determine your path in life.  I know you can do this.  You have so many people that care about you and will be your support system.  We all love you and are praying and rooting for you.  You have a lot of good qualities, but they disappear when you are using.  Keep working hard – YOU CAN BE SUCCESSFUL.

 Love Mom”

Still think your addiction only affects you?  Well, think again.

And remember, if you’re struggling, or know someone who is struggling, please don’t lose hope.  If that had happened to me, I wouldn’t be able to spread awareness today.